Resurfacing

Now that the all consuming, mind numbing, anticipation of life or death dramatics has passed, I feel like I'm just coming up from a very long submersion under water.  I don't think I realized it before, but I'm pretty sure I was holding my breath all last week.... Kevin kept wondering if something was wrong all afternoon as I sighed, over and over and over again. 

I noticed a few other things upon coming up for air.  My house is in absolute dissary, I have no food in the fridge, and the bright orange shutterfly box of my christmas cards has been sitting on my counter for over a week now.  This promptly caused me to start freaking out again.

Does anyone else get totally distressed over the Christmas Card process?   Because I'm cheap fiscally responsible, I opted for the cheapest most price concience card, and it still cost a small fortune.  Ofcourse, shutterfly would send out a coupon exactly 10 minutes after the 30 minute window to cancel my order had passed. Lovely. 

Everytime I get to that page of selecting order quantity, I freeze.  Every year I order slightly more, and every year its not enough.  I consult my 'list'.  My running address label word document, that allows me to avoid the inane task of individually addressing enevelops.  My head says its surely impossible to order this many.  My list says otherwise.  Then the heart palpitations start when I think about forgetting someone.  So when I resurfaced today, and realized if I were to send a card to everyone I loved, I'd need to order 300, I got overwhelmed and sat down with a handful of chocolate chips to think.

Upon realizing Christmas cards were not intended to cause this much stress, a concept more sane people grasp much more quickly, I decided the cards I have will go out, and after the appropriate amount of time for delivery, I'll post the card to FB.  I think the absence of air to the brain for a week, may have had something to do with how I prioritized Christmas cards above food and shelter, in the list of things to do.

Thank goodness its Tuesday and whole foods will feed me pizza again.... I guess that leaves the house!